Meaning, I am a woman, SO...
there are days when I feel smart and sexy and beautiful, and like Super Woman...Like nothing can touch me, and I'm on top of the world, and that every person I walk by is going to stop and stare because I've got something that they want: be it confidence, beauty, style, grace, etc...
but I also have days where I feel uncomfortable with my body. Days when I think that I am not beautiful. Days when my hair doesn't go the right way, and my stretched body from carrying two babies is tired and worn and out of shape. Days when the clothes just don't fit me right. Days when my confidence is at an all time low, and I don't feel like I can do much more than the mundane things to get me through the day. Days when my mind doesn't seem to function as it used to, and I can't find the right words. Days when I could lay in bed and just be there... I am a woman.
I am a woman. And this means sometimes I have feelings that I can't exactly express. There are things I experience and want to say and explain and share, but I can't find the right words. There are times I am so angry that I could scream, but the words to describe why just don't come to me. Times when I am not even sure myself why I am feeling the way that I am...and if I don't even know why I'm feeling it, then how could I explain it to someone else? I am a woman.
I am a woman. There is a part of me deep down that knows that I could do every thing that a man could. Not to prove to everyone that men and women are equal, but more to prove to myself that I am as strong as I believe I am. There's a part of me that knows that I am just as smart, savvy, physically capable, strong, business-minded, and hard-working. There's part of me that has to prove that to others around me-mostly for my own sake.
I am a woman. When I put my mind to something- I mean, really believe that I can do it, and that it's what I want- I can do it! Every obstacle imaginable could come my way, but nothing could stop what I've put my mind to...and that's especially true when that thing involves my family-my husband or my kids. There's an instinct in me that says, no one messes with me or my family...I am a woman.
I am a woman. I live my life to those outside of my circle as someone who doesn't need help. As if to say, "I'm good to go. Thanks for the offer, but I have everything I need..." I live as if I've got everything under control...and sometimes I do...but more often, I'm able to put on a great front if I need to. There are those who I can go to and tell that I don't have it all together. The circle of friends that support me in my effort of being the "strong" woman that I want to be...but not everyone gets to see that part of me...I am a woman.
I am a woman. I carry in my possession most places that I go more things than any man probably ever would. And sometimes those things fit in the smallest and most stylish handbag you've ever seen. I am prepared at all times for accidents, purchases, scheduling, needs...just life...I am a woman.
I am a woman. I listen and care, and I try to identify...my way of helping is to tell you my story of how I can identify with your situation...even if that doesn't really help your situation. It's just part of who I am. My ability to understand where you are, puts me in a place to give you advice, help, prayer, support....it doesn't mean that I can come up with a solution for you, but at least I will be able to identify with you. "I understand" isn't just something that comes out of my mouth...it comes from my heart too.
I am a woman.
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